While in Vegas, our dog sitter called and said Sadie would not get up and go outside and had some accidents in the house. Before we left, she was walking and eating fine. Apparently she looked sad and was not using her back legs. I figured it was because we had been gone for a few days and she was probably just lying around, and with her arthritis, her muscles were just super achy. Oh how I wish that was all it was :( we came home to a very sad and sick Sadie. Normally when we get home, she runs over to is and wags her tail. Not this time. She could not walk, Eric had to carry her outside to use the restroom. Once outside, she just collapsed and went to the bathroom all over herself. It was the saddest sight I had ever seen. She was not eating or drinking. I was sick to my stomach watching her suffer. My guess is she suffered a stroke while we were gone, which caused her back legs to be paralyzed. I knew she was waiting for us to get home. She was emancipated, I'm talking bones sticking through. Eric and I knew what we had to do. It was the toughest decision we had EVER had to make, but we couldn't watch her get any sicker. On Tuesday April 24th, we took her to the vet and put her to rest. It was very traumatizing for Eric and I having to say goodbye. Though the actual process was peaceful, having to say goodbye and know she wouldn't be with us anymore was so heartbreaking. All Eric and I could do is cry and hold her in this room. I couldn't break away from her for quite some time. I was happy she was no longer in pain though. Next, we had to tell Bella. I explained that Sadie was in heaven now with Jesus. She had a lot of questions for me including "why does Jesus get Sadie, she's our dog?" ugh it was terrible. The next few days JJ asked for her and even said "bye Sadie " as we left the house in the morning. It's been hard for us all to get used to. I continue to hear her paws on the time, hear her shake her collar, and hear her sigh at night. I have her beds still next to my side of bed, and cant bring myself anytime soon to het rid of them. I cry all the time for her, but try and remember all the good times with her.
Eric brought her to me at work as a surprise in the summer of 1998. She was the cutest puppy I'd ever seen, wrapped up in a t shirt. She was a very difficult puppy , chewed everything and anything, liked to bite, mean to other animals, and just feisty. With training and some discipline, she turned in to the best behaved, kindest and sweetest animal I had ever been around. That's saying a lot because I grew up surrounded by anianimals. Throughout the years, Sadie had moved with Eric and I in to my moms house, my dads house, 2 apartments, to Tucson, and more homes in Phoenix. For 10 years, she was the one and only baby in our house. Before we had babies, she drove in the car with me everywhere, slept with us, and enjoyed being the center of our house. When we had babies, the dynamics of the house changed, but our love for her never did. I know she felt jealous a lot, and we didn't do a good job of making sure she didnt feel that way. It just got so difficult with 2 babies in the house at once who required so much attention. Sadie was in her senior years the last few years, and was not as active as she once was, but remained active and loved being wherever we all were. She loved our babies and the babies loved her.
My favorite Sadie moments were bringing her to the beach and watching her run more freely than I'd ever seen in my life's he loved the water so much. Another one is when she was a puppy, I came home to an apartmentnt full of feathers. I mean feathers on the fan, feathers covered ceiling to floor. I walked in to my bedroom and Sadiee was lying there covered in feathers herself. She had tore apart our king size down comforter and there were feathers galore.
We will always miss Sadie Marie. I cannot imagine ever having another dog, because how will one ever live up to her? I will always miss Sadie and look forward to not crying when I see her things, instead feel happy. Love u Sadie Marie Valencia Hoover!!
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